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Trust That You Are Good Enough & Remember Your Worth | #TakeMeHomeThursday // Art

“We have all a better guide in ourselves, if we would attend to it, than any other person can be.” – Jane Austen

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“Trust” by Cat De Pillar | Click To View Print Options

Untitled-1ave you ever really trusted? Have you ever exposed the most vulnerable parts of yourself knowing that you would be there to have your back in case ANYONE hurt you? Have you ever been so deeply tuned in to yourself that you could let go of your expectations and simply allow? Allow everything you want to come to you, knowing that you are good enough to receive it?

This piece of my #powerwordseries is about that kind of trust.

It’s not about trusting OTHER people, or things outside of your control.

It’s about trusting that YOU will always be there to love and take care of you.

On Becoming A Rose of Tralee | What it is & Why I Want to Be a Part of it

Exciting news! I have been accepted to the Rose of Tralee International Festival [a big thing for Irish people 🙂 ] and I decided to document my personal journey as I participate, and share it with you.

This is a little introductory video on the festival itself and why I wanted to participate this year.

I am sorry if the sound is not ideal, but I really wanted to take my gear out into the woods and talk to you from there – if you can’t hear me properly, at least you will hear the rush of water and the singing of birds [which is way more interesting anyway].

I would love to hear your thoughts on this and can’t wait to take you with me on this exciting adventure!

Take care, xo

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Embody Your Sensuality & Experience the Pleasure of Now | #TakeMeHomeThursday // Art

“The feminine does not save itself for some glorious moment in the future, nor grieve over some lost moment in the past. It holds nothing back. Now is all there ever is.” – Marion Woodman

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“Sensual Enlightenment” by Cat De Pillar. Click to View Print Options

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his piece is the result of a beautiful collaboration with the woman behind earthbodymama, a blog focused on guiding women to wholeness, sensuality, and liberated sexuality.

When I set out to illustrate the new post for Jillian, all I knew was the general theme: sensual enlightenment, sacred sexuality, and reclaiming our sensuality as women.

I spent many days thinking about this theme and how to best bring it to life. Even though I had quickly arrived at a very specific idea for this piece, nothing actually turned out as I had planned  *You can listen to me complaining talk about this in part two of my series Behind the Art:Embracing The Ugly Stage

Originally, I had intended on keeping my illustration very graphic with only little splotches of colour. However, this goddess did not want to be drawn in black and white. Every time I thought about this piece [I wanted to draw it in black and white and some hot pink], it came to me in bursts of colour and texture.

The sensible artist that I am, I stopped struggling against this vision of the piece pretty quickly, and was even inspired to mix medias in a way that I had never done before.

#TakeMeHomeThursday | “Ruling the World (from My Couch)” Watercolour Illustration for Planners and Dreamers

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“Ruling the World (from My Couch)” (2016) Watercolour Illustration by Cat De Pillar | Click to view print options

As a videogame aficionado (heck, I’m actually pursuing an academic education in this field) I love seeing people wearing t-shirts with some variation of “achievement unlocked: [what you managed to do].”

Not only do they make me laugh, I always end up making up my own versions of the phrase, which I find highly entertaining.  Some of my favourites are:

“Achievement unlocked: I left the house today.”

“Achievement unlocked: I washed myself”

“Achievement unlocked: I tackled my to-do list and survived”

But my most favourite phrase – and interestingly, the one I usually think of first – is:

“Achievement unlocked: I changed out of my pyjamas today.”

YES! I admit to it – judge me all you like! [we both know you are guilty of this too]

I am one of those people who, if they don’t have to leave the house and have a day to putter around for themselves, they stay in their pyjamas. *I usually throw a XXL, bulgy, and absolutely unflattering jumper into the mix, just for good measure

And that, my friends, is what this illustration is about. [Although, it’s less about the disgusting, unwashed side of it, and more about that constructive emotional and mental space we enter into on those days.]

As we lounge on the couch, ideally with a hot cuppa and a notebook (the new one, not the thousand other ones you bought and are saving for “something special”), we are able to rule the world from our couch – by starting in our heads.

It is that beautifully cosy moment where we take some time to plan and and become clear on what we want in life. [or for dinner] Where we lean back into the soft cushions and imagine where we want to go, where we want to be, and what we want to achieve.

Where we surround ourselves with all the books that we have only read half-way through, but that inspire us just by lying in sight. Where we finally jot down the next steps we want to take; the next projects we want to tackle; the next experience we want to allow.

Where we take some time for ourselves; where we let go of pretences, and get to work on what is happening inside.

Where we are so much closer to ourselves and what really matters to us ,  that magic is possible.

Illustration Details: 

Watercolour and ink on 150 g/qm watercolour paper.

Let me know what you think and share it with all your friends to give them a subtle hint! [that staying in your pyjamas all day is awesome, of course]

I send you my love and a big hug,

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This Is Why Curiosity Killed The Cat And Doing What You Love Feels Hard

“I’m not trying to turn you into me. I’m trying to turn you into you.” – Shifu, Kung Fu Panda 3

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As I write this, I feel scared. In fact, I have spent my entire day [days even] NOT writing this – or anything else for that matter – because I always fear that I will not be able to provide you with enough value.

But let me start from the beginning:

I have been spending a lot of time recently thinking about all the people online who I admire; what I love about them, and what it is that draws me to their work. One thing I kept coming back to was how authentic they are, and how they just do their own thing. Unapologetically.

Even though they invest a lot of time, effort and vulnerability into their work, it seems effortless and full of genuine personality.

Every weak I crave to spend time with any version of them I have access to. I read their words, watch their videos, and listen to their voices. They are there for me in the morning as I get dressed, when I peel the potatoes, and when the universe knows I need a pick-me up.

But it’s not because their content is so radical, or every post delivers an epic paradigm-shift in a “my life will never be the same” kind of way, but because it is wonderful in a “being close to you makes me feel so good inside and happy,” kind of way.

What I think is YOU GET ME AND I AM SO HAPPY I FOUND YOU! Oftentimes, that is enough; it’s all I want. Sprinkle in some valuable anecdotes, insights, quotes, artwork and “aha” moments, and I’m happy in my nappy.

Do you ever have that feeling with people [online] and their work? Do you ever get that excited feeling of love that spreads in your stomach and as a smile across your face, when their images pop up or their new video is out?

They can be little rays of sunshine warming your face on a rainy day.

Going over these thoughts, however, I uncomfortably became aware of my emotions of jealousy towards these people. [I am very grateful that this jealousy was not infused with toxicity and malice, but with yearning and sadness.]

Why can’t I do the same? Why does creating, sharing, enjoying “the things I love” – feel so hard? When did I lose my joy; when did it stop being fun? When did I start fearing the blank page and replacing my creative endeavours with online browsing? When did writing and making up stories turn into consuming other people’s work and resenting them for doing it? When did I lose trust in my own abilities and that what I do is good enough; that what I love is good enough?

What “To Nurture” Truly Means | Art Vlog

You know how you work on a painting and everything works out perfectly from start to finish? You don’t?

Well, I don’t either.

In this instalment of my art vlog Cats Creative Channel [CCC], you can watch me awkwardly speak into the camera, sing about needing deodorant, fuck up majorly, and finally, paint my newest piece of the #powerword meets #lovemantra series.

// About the piece

This is a piece that feels like a little breakthrough to me – I cannot even point out to you why, but I know that this picture is a new beginning…of something.

It is dedicated to the fantastic Catherine Orer from The Artist Entrepreneur, who helped me so much during the 1:1 call that I won. As she was being so generous with her gift to me, I felt that I had to create something as a token of my gratitude in return! [And now I want to go watch Shrek]

Looking for a word that represents Catherine to me, I kept coming back to some version of “care” – which ultimately led me to “nurture.”

// The Finished Piece

This is for those of us who nurture through inspiration, through commitment, through trust and love – but who are aware of their boundaries and don’t allow others to abuse their kindness.

// The mantra to this piece is

I will nurture you and help you grow, but if you do not want to grow – I will not be able to support you. I help those grow, who are already willing and motivated to grow themselves.

Make a cup of your favourite hot beverage, laugh at me in the comfort of your own home, and take some time for yourself to be inspired [or entertained] by my art and process.

xo,

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